current

With the changing of the weather comes a changing of heart for Hannah.

This past weekend, I attended Anti freeze with the Summit, and there were many things revealed to me that i have missed these last few years. it had been far to long since i felt the spirit of God moving in me, and i guess i didn't realize how much i missed it. maybe it was the fact that i'm so caught up in myself. so entirly absorbed in personal gain, personal happiness, personal success. but i FELT Him. he TOUCHED me. he CHANGED me.

"you're all i want.
you're all i need.
you're everything.
Lord you're everything"

for 2 hours we sang, for 2 hours God met with me personally and i realized that he is everything, that i owe him everything. entirely loved, passionatly persued, and wanted. that's what i felt, and that's what He wants from me. i've been so stagnant for so long, and this weekend God's hand started a current and it's amazing how good that fresh, living water feels. I still have a long way to go, but a spark has been ignited in my ever tired spirit, and i feel like i've been exposed, and now there's no turning back, no going against the flow.

"You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything."

joyless

so, now that i posted about things that make me happy, i would like to take the time to say that i am not currently happy. i don't even know why. which is dumb. i can think of quite a few reasons why i should be, and i KNOW i should be content. actually, i lied. i do know why i'm upset and mad. i suppose i need to work it out, but sometimes its easier to pout about it. i'm so tired of trying, of wanting something to work the way i want it to so badly. i need an easy button. and while i'm at it, i can push it and it will make it easier not to be so complainitive. there is no easy button, God says it's not going to be easy. but i suppose he can make it easier. that's comforting.
in church today, lundy talked about the renewing of your mind. i want to renew my mind.
now, look down, and read the last post again. about happy things.
i'm not bipolar. i promise.

joy

Some things in life bring absolute joy.

Things that make me happy:
1. sunshine
2. big fields where you can see lots of clouds
3. sweet tea with lemon
4. memorized bible verses
5. tingle feeling at someone special's touch
6. butterflies
7. playing in rain
8. singing from my heart
9. hearing God
10. listening to my family laugh
11. sand when its warm on my toes
12. barefeet in the summer
13. books
14. recieving a letter
15. feeling beautiful, inside and out
16. acting out of unselfishness

love. to. live.